I'm having a hard time letting go of who I was before cancer. My diagnosis came a week after I was married and with our one-year anniversary on the horizon I am having a hard time changing my name. I know this is never easy but it feels like the one last connection to my life "BC", when I was happy and my life felt on track. Perhaps I haven't come to that place yet where I accept Erin post-cancer but I don't want to completely reinvent myself, its exhausting and I really did like "me" before this. I am trying to let go of what was, because it wont ever be the same again - easier said than done but its day by day I guess.